The last two days I've been thinking a lot about this guy I used to like, mostly because I had a dream I was making out with him. It was so hot it got me thinking, why not? I have no idea if he's still interested but we'll see if something happens. He used to be really easy-going and funny. Let's hope he hasn't lost that in the last four years.

If my life would be that simple that would mean the boyfriends and men I've dated in the last seven years could have been avoided. Which is a bit tragic to think of, if my love life could really be tied up in such a neat little bow? I would have loved to date him back then but we were so much younger, I really don't know if it would have worked out for us. His lips felt so real, I hated waking up when I did. I really wanted to know what was going to happen next. It felt effortless, sweet, even... innocent. The kissing was really great, I mean spectacular. His hair looked like it did when we met, but his body was the body of a man, sexy, pretty muscular. It's really silly I know... we almost kissed once after we'd been to an event. But we weren't alone. A big part of me regrets that

Embarking on a new Journey....

After all the stress in the past three months of my life I am finally where I want to be, starting college in just a few short days. This in my opinion is both a good and bad thing. The only music class I could get this semester is a Voice Class which from what I understand is a class where you learn the fundamentals of singing, which happens to be the name of the book for that class. I really wanted to take music theory but couldn't find a time that worked for me from what was open. Which may be a blessing in disguise, I already have 13 credits and Music Theory would have brought it up to 17, I don't want to push myself that much in my first semester.

I'll write again soon after my first class on August 25th which happens to be Voice Class, YAY!!

Dear Readers....

I have not fallen off the face of the earth. Since my last post I've attended orientation, registered, purchased my school books and school supplies, cut my hair (*see picture below) and managed to organize my bedroom; desk included!

Needless to say I am beyond thrilled to start my classes, I'll admit there was a while there I was afraid I wouldn't be able to start College this fall, thank God I was mistaken. I was blessed with more financial aid than I expected; enough to cover my tuition, books and school supplies. All I have left to do is go to class on Monday.

I'm feeling a little nervous but more excited than anything else, I've been dreaming of going to college for as I've known what college was and now It's my turn, finally.

I'll be taking 13 credits this semester, I'm hoping I can get all of my prerequisites taken care of in one semester but if I can't at least the majority of them.

I'll check in after my first day to fill you in on how it went. Wish me luck!

Feeling small in a big place...

Life is busy right now. I've already signed up for orientation and I'm about to register for the classes. I can't help but feel small in this huge place. College is going to be an interesting if not amazing experice, yet, I'm still nervous.

I'll write in again when i can, Thanks for the e mails and comments.

I’m getting the final paper work done for college! I’m so excited, I’ll be taking the CPT soon probably next week. I hope I get a good enough score so I don’t have to do a pre college class. That would really bumb me out.
Well until next time. I’ll be posting again when I can.

XOXO

Sacrifices must be made......

Through the time I've been singing, even before I decided to focus on classical music. I had a lot of problems with my voice, most of them were because I didn't care for my instrument as I should have. I screamed when I went out, drank a lot of caffeine, and talked on the phone for hours on end. Since I've actually been learning how to care for my voice by avoiding caffeine before I practice or perform, Controlling my sneezing and coughing, and well... you get the idea. I've been changing a lot of things in my life, for example when I'm on the phone I make sure the other person speaks more, that I take breaks when they do, and drink a lot of water. It's just common sense.

I've also learned that if I'm going to be the kind of singer I want to be I have to be willing to make sacrifices, one of them would be I no longer have meat, this wasn't a decision I made solely to lose weight, although that is a plus. I decided this because I knew I needed to control myself and my eating habits not to mention that everything I eat affects my instrument, I use my instrument daily whether I like it or not. I am going to lose this weight once and for all, regardless of how hungry I feel. It's only hunger, right?

Sacrifice means giving up something good for something better, and that is the truth.

This is my Motivation

Anna Netrebko

Back to Basics.....

Ever have one of those days when you're just stuck in your own head? Since last night I've been like this. I hate all the noise I have going on right now, I feel overwhelmed by my own thoughts. I hate feeling like that. Today I was determined to practice and did, my voice isn't as bad as I was expecting, It's actually not that bad right now. I stopped practicing a few months back simply because I'd lost all motivation and drive. I was letting my passion go simply because of what a couple of people said. Thankfully I snapped out of it, it would have been such a mistake if I hadn't realized it. Now I'm slowly getting back on track, I will be practicing everyday until my voice is back in shape, I figure it will take a few weeks. I am going to take it slowly to make sure I don't force my voice to do anything it's not yet ready to do. I Don’t want to set myself back even further by losing my voice. Today I only did warm ups and vocal exercises for about 15 minutes. Which granted, isn't close to the hour or two I did before. But I'm solely focusing on warm ups, breathing, music theory, and vocal exercises until my voice is back in shape.

I loved it, feeling the sound fill my body and flow out of my lips. I remembered how good it feels to have music flowing out of you..... There's nothing like it.

Today I've also been doing a lot of research on singer's do's and don'ts, vocal health information, and anything else I can get my hands on. I'm feeling good about the work I'm doing right now, as I said earlier this evening; I'm not where I want to be, yet, but I am closer.